Walls are closing in on me!

Had a very rough, emotional, day yesterday... Been having alot of those lately. Not sure whats going on just wish I could be back to my normal self! For once in a long time I actually had the motivation to get some things done around the house and decided to work on the playroom. Well I couldnt get everything to fit anywhere with all the holiday decorations back there and so I decided to put them in the closet by the washer and dryer when Anthony got home to help me- only to figure out after doing it all that it wouldnt fit! So we had to take it all out and now its all stacked up in the room again, so yea had a total melt down last night and pretty much cried for the rest of the night and then felt like crap because of it when I woke up today! Everything going on lately has just been getting to me! This house is entirely too small for all of our stuff and it drives me crazy because I hate that everything is not organized... there is just no room to put things away. And then my gallbladder is just getting worse and I have no insurance or money to get it taken care of and Im getting bills and phone calls just about every day from going to the ER for it. And then there is the stress of trying to save money for Kalel's 1st Bday (in 4 months!) and Christmas and me and Anthony's 1 year wedding anniversary (in 2 months!!!) Ahh! I hate work lately and I hate even more the fact that I feel like Im exhausted and dont feel like doing anything but sleeping most of the time... 

Glad that I did have a somewhat better day today, Ally came over for a little bit, wanted to spend sometime outside I think the fresh air is good for me lately- at the risk of sounding cheesy- its food for the soul : )

My 23rd birthday is in 23 hours... going to force myself to get up early and spend the day at the beach or the park, because I know even if its hard getting out of bed I will be so happy that I did it, been spending way to much time indoors lately. Then gonna go and get my nose re-pierced with Ally! Working tomorrow night and then spending the whole day Wednesday with friends and family for my bday! I cant wait to get out and feel a little human again!